Lonely Love

I cry at night
in my lonely sleep
as a child abandoned with
a horrendous sight
why do hearts gentlly and slowly crack so deep?

My agonzing pain
with diamond drops
let it rain
from my reddened eyes until it stops

I can only feel
the warmth of a blanket
where no one will heal
my cold shivers, I bet
I'll never know for real

When two bodies meet
from face to face,
I long for a heat
to discover an embrace

Without a voice
I long to hear,
I have a choice
to be found here

When friends come and go,
where am I, but lost,
stranded with a cost?
Somwhere I'll never know

When I meet,
I learn to be discreet.
But when they fly
away, I only hear a goodbye.
No more shall we greet,
let me rot to lie
with maggots and die.

Where is my mother?
Where is my father?
Why leave me
and let it be?

If I know not of love,
I remember not of a jubilant kiss.
If I'll know never of such bliss,
when will I find peace as a ghostly dove

I cannot bear
with no one to share
my wanted love
as an ecstasy from heaven above

To be unadorned
and to be uncared
for, will be my greatest fear
I dare not to endure

I may always stand
alone with a thousand
of white and silver hair,
but I am strong
enough to bear.
There is nothing wrong
to have no friends
to make amends

Monarchs without Crowns

It is not a person with a magnificent headdress                 
It is not portayed in fine robes with fancy threads
It is not the voice of the sophisticated and well mannered
It is not well divine
It is not born with royal blood
It is not wealthy nor rich
It is not a winner
It does not have the perfect life
It is not conservative
It does not control its particular country
It is never perfect
It does not worry about it's reputation
It is not raised and taught to fight in combat and in war
It does not worry about getting dirty
It is not a virgin
It does not want to be stuck with the same traditions
It does not treat subjects, disciples, fans, or followers badly
It is not a boring life
It won't stand down for anyone but itself
It is not always normal
It doesn not have an entourage
It is not always heterosexual
It does not lie to it's people
It does not pretend to be who it is not
It may not create laws, but it may create ideas
It may not be as wise as professors and teachers, but it is as wise as philosophers and scholars
It does not care about money, but one needs it for living to survive
It is not afraid to take risks, no matter what
It is not weak to survive in danger
It is not afraid to love someone, despite sex, age, gender, looks and social status; Love knows no limits
It does not judge
It does not hate everything, but it hates to be heartbroken
It is not afraid to rebel against society for it's rights
It is not like every normal person who follow trends through the media and set its own
It is not afraid to speak for itself
But it is just one simple individual with an extraordinary mind, who sticks to it's beliefs and principles
through creativity and imagination