Lonely Love

I cry at night
in my lonely sleep
as a child abandoned with
a horrendous sight
why do hearts gentlly and slowly crack so deep?

My agonzing pain
with diamond drops
let it rain
from my reddened eyes until it stops

I can only feel
the warmth of a blanket
where no one will heal
my cold shivers, I bet
I'll never know for real

When two bodies meet
from face to face,
I long for a heat
to discover an embrace

Without a voice
I long to hear,
I have a choice
to be found here

When friends come and go,
where am I, but lost,
stranded with a cost?
Somwhere I'll never know

When I meet,
I learn to be discreet.
But when they fly
away, I only hear a goodbye.
No more shall we greet,
let me rot to lie
with maggots and die.

Where is my mother?
Where is my father?
Why leave me
and let it be?

If I know not of love,
I remember not of a jubilant kiss.
If I'll know never of such bliss,
when will I find peace as a ghostly dove

I cannot bear
with no one to share
my wanted love
as an ecstasy from heaven above

To be unadorned
and to be uncared
for, will be my greatest fear
I dare not to endure

I may always stand
alone with a thousand
of white and silver hair,
but I am strong
enough to bear.
There is nothing wrong
to have no friends
to make amends