My Merciful Heartbreaker

Before you,
I was through
with the thought
of love and forgot
my own key to
my happiness and heart.

I never had someone
to be my best friend
because I always depended
on no one.

Forgot to smile
for awhile
because I've lost my joy
until you fixed my emotionless toy.

You were the first boy
I took to the roof
where I can shout to the clouds from
my frustrations and focus.

You were my awkward moment when I wanted to hug you
after meeting you, but I shook your hand instead.
I thought I was odd and you would not like me back.

You were the boy
to kiss me from my two years of loneliness.

You were the boy
I enjoyed talking and sharing music
together.

You were the boy I liked
to take you to my home and lie on the couches
to give each sweet crimson sins.

You were my very first date
to take pictures and wear Domo hats in
a halloween store. You thought its adorable.

You were the boy
I ever felt intimate with.

You were the boy
who told me you thought you were stalking me by
following me around because you liked me for me.
To admit that I was awesome, made me forget my worries.

You were the boy
that really cared about me because
you like me too much to break me into pieces.

You were the boy
to reject me.
I cried a little but you released me
from my depression and misery

You were my first real love
and the best thing I have ever received,
but you were also my merciful regret.

You taught me not to be
afraid of love and believed in me.
You helped me remind myself that
I have support from everyone we know.

Now you are the first boy
I write about because I thank you for
saving me from my greatest fear: sucking so bad on stage.